An Ode To No One Is a Cry To Someone

You know how there's that asshole in the group? The one person, guy or girl, who everyone hangs with, but no one likes?

Am I that person?

Is that the reason?

There has to be a reason I cannot get a date. I cannot get a girl interested. I don't think I'm that bad. I've gotten many more compliments over the years than I have insults. I'm cut from different cloth. So what?


It's seriously annoying. I know the fault lies within. I know it.

I just don't know why.

Is it my long hair? Is it my fucked up sense of humor? Is it my not wanting kids? Is it my background? Is it my weird take on life? Is it my desire to have someone, yet still want to be alone sometimes? WHAT THE FUCK IS IT|?

Shit

Seriously, WHAT THE FUCK IS IT?

I will not cave to standards that I'm supposed to cave to. Is that where love lies?

I will not give up myself. I refuse to die in your bed. Is that where love lies?

I will not die in your bed anymore, because that's where "love" lies.

What do you want? Another fucking weak ass soul?

Fuck you. I won't lie in your weak bed.

I won't fall apart in your weak arms.
I will not fucking rest in your weak surroundings.
I will NEVER lie to you so that you'll accept me
I WILL NOT LET YOU HURT ME, SCAR ME,HUMILIATE ME, LAUGH AT ME, or FUCK WITH ME EVER AGAIN.



I will be me. Fuck you if you don't like it.

I'm tired of placing my heart on your sleeve, only to have you throw your coat off and use it to wipe up the tears from your past.

RYAN